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Monday, April 28th, 2008
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1:23 pm - snippets #23
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| Monday, March 24th, 2008
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12:36 am - snippets #22
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i'm reading again! it's such a great feeling.
a week or two ago, i finished Confessor, the last book in the sword of Truth series, by Terry Goodkind. true to Goodkind's style, the characters talked A LOT. the story moved slowly. things happened in places all over their world. and in the final chapters, EVERYTYHING happened.
despite all my complaints, Goodkind still managed to surprise me with a few plot twists. i think i rather liked the ending, because i really wasn't expecting it to turn out that way. it's a fitting end to the series, and it's nice to know that at the end of it all, sila pa rin. sila talaga..( read more )
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Ok Go - The Fix Is In
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(tell me your secrets)
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| Wednesday, March 12th, 2008
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2:32 am - matrimony
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weddings make me happy. i used to have a rather grim view of marriage, probably brought about by years of doubt about my parents' relationship and the circumstances of my birth. now i have no illusions that it was a perfect marriage, but i do know at some point they loved each other deeply.
i think what makes weddings so touching to me is the fact that it's a giant leap of faith. here is a man i love, and i believe and am willing to declare to the whole world that i believe i can love him till death. and for the most part, it's a giant celebration, a giant step in a completely new direction, and it's brave and stupid and wonderful.
the faces of newlyweds, the smiles on their faces, the tears in their eyes, these always bring tears to me, even if the bride and groom are strangers to me. it's just so beautiful.
i have no illusions that a perfect wedding means a perfect marriage. marriages fall apart for all sorts of reasons, and weddings--beautiful or disastrous--are no indication of how the years that follow will play out. it isn't the possibilities of the relationship to come that touches me. it's the enormity of the emotion that brought you both to that day.
can you imagine feeling so intensely for one person enough to say to the whole world that there can never be anyone else?
i can.
current mood:  tired
current music: Arcanum
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(2 whispers | tell me your secrets)
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| Friday, March 7th, 2008
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12:38 pm - Reminiscences
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it was my parents' wedding anniversary last Tuesday. i don't remember what year they got married. i think it was around 1983 or 1984. they flew to Hong Kong and got married there, because here, my dad was still married to Cecilia. Mom wore a red silk suit, with a chinese collar, short sleeves, and a pencil cut skirt. i think she had it made for the occasion. with some of the excess material, Mom later made a dress for my Barbie doll, a beautiful, strapless affair, empire cut, with a billowy skirt. it was one of my favorite dresses for Barbie. when they came home, they brought me a pajama set with pictures of Chinese girls embroidered o the shirt,
i didn't greet my mom. i didn't know if she wanted to be greeted. but i remembered.
happy anniversary, Mom and Dad! :)
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sometime ago, it was Simon and Garfunkel that i would listen to when i wanted to remember my dad. now i have Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band.
John, Paul, George and Ringo, i love you.
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Dad, wherever you are, i hope you're okay. i miss you.
current mood:  nostalgic
current music: Final Fantasy - This is the Dream of Win and Regine
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(2 whispers | tell me your secrets)
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| Monday, February 11th, 2008
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5:13 pm - here or there
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we are never really where we are. always this running from, heading to, coming home, going there. always moving, walking, driving. commuting, flying.
never just here. never just now. always later, a moment ago, tomorrow, yesterday. always counting, planning, recounting, remembering.
never just now. never just.
Singapore, 3:20 AM, 14 January 2008
current mood:  pensive
current music: Ravi Shankar and Philip Glass - Sadhanipa
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(2 whispers | tell me your secrets)
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calm